June was one of the most challenging months I’ve ever lived through. The beginning of July has been difficult as well, although the worst of it is over.
When I get stressed, one of the first things that happens is I lose my focus. It is hard enough for me to keep track of my time, which is why I am so meticulous with my day planner.
But as my focus diminishes, so does organization in my planner.
I have to be better. I must be better. I have been not showing up for things that I say I will show up for. Everyone makes mistakes, but I don’t want to be a hypocrite. I tell people all the time…
“Do what you say you’re going to do.”
I think that’s how we all measure respect for one another. We respect people who do what they say they will do. We don’t respect flakes or people who are incompetent of time management.
This last month, I’ve been working so hard but I have been straining and pulling and tugging. I am glad I can recognize this behavior in myself because now I can change it. I need to change my actions, my thoughts, my behaviors.
It’s not a major change, it’s an adjustment. I need to be more at managing my time.