It’s been 3 months since I have been allowed to exercise. My recovery from my back surgery is going great, but still… I have to take it easy.
This week I had my first workouts and it didn’t go very well.
It’s incredible how much of your fitness you can lose in 3 months. My stamina, my muscle tone, my abs, and my flexibility are all gone. I’ve been training my body for peak performance for my entire life. I feel like I have lost everything I worked for.
For some reason, my first instinct is to be overly critical of myself. I talk to myself as though I did something wrong. I say things to myself that I would never say to anyone else.
- “you’re slow”
- “your belly is soft”
- “you probably couldn’t run a full mile”
- “you’ll never be where you were”
Where is the utility in that?
I didn’t fail at anything, I didn’t lose my fitness through lack of effort, I lost it because I had a major operation on my back. Now I am taking the necessary steps to ensure that I can continue living my life pain-free.
So what’s the issue?
I think everyone can benefit from being more kind to yourself. There is nothing to gain by speaking to yourself in an overly critical manner. The way we speak to ourselves means more than we realize.
I am going to be more careful about that.